je t'aime .. je ne t'aime pas

2007-03-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

dear people.

i've just moved my blog to here. if you cannot open the link, it's at http://comebacktoEARTH.blogspot.com

2007-02-27T12:37:00.000+08:00

its been some time since i update this crap. i feel so lazy. oh well .. wait till i got mood for updates! hahahahha

psfttt

2007-02-15T09:52:00.000+08:00

yest was another lonely Vday.. BUT somehow i don feel much (since i don celebrate vday). In fact, i was in a good mood. perhaps its because i said something which i wanted to say since a long time back. i feel that my burden isnt as heavy as before now. some big rocks in me has been disposed off, at last. i cant possibly be happy always, but least i shouldnt be depressed all the time. now im starting to pick the pace up, well it takes time afterall.

Some people change drastically, it's a painful fact that it's true. However, you cant do anything much about it. so, move on! i need to read books for self-improvements, there's some selling at TIMES bookstore @ centerpoint or orchard point i always get confused between those two.

stay at home the whole day yest until i went out to have my dinner. then supper after that.
and i received a rose a first time.
im the different kind of guy. WEIRDO ! xD

feb 13th

2007-02-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me, i say to myself.

just finished watching FULL HOUSE, the ending is so sweet. i wonder what to do today, no plans yet. most likely i'll be staying home to sleep xD

anyway thanks to all those who remembered. i'll greatly appreciate it.

somehow, its a rather sad and gloomy day.
why, you say. the answer lies in myself.

i don ask for much! just make my only wish come true. i can pass on the gifts. don ask me what i want cos what i really want cannot be bought. (im talking like people will ask. hahaha)

ja na~

2007-02-13T05:26:00.001+08:00

i hate BIRTHDAYS! =`(

SUMO.

2007-02-08T08:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to TIMES bookstore and i saw this really cool book, its called S.U.M.O. - Shut Up, Move On. i think i'll need to that book however somethings arent really that easy to do so, it just depends on whether i would like to move on or get stuck in my protective shell. tmr will be my final paper for the examination. i haven started looking at the text yet, but i will do so maybe in the afternoon and driving's at 5.30pm today (i detest the traffic lights).

life short, well everybody says that. that's such a common sentence in everybody's mouth. but in fact, life is really unpredictable not really short. its short because unpredictable things happened. its long when nothing happens.. not really long either. yup, anyway shit happens unexpectedly and it happens just before CNY. i don really care if any of you labelled me as a pessimist but my relative just passed away last night. :
im not feeling real sad, i donno what im feeling either. hope my cousins will be alright though.

saw a white addidas jacket with light blue stripes, behind with the mohammad ali logo at Addidas, heeren. it cost around $129 if im not wrong. there's only a few pieces left, yet im so lacking of cash now. oh well .. somethings are not meant to be.

to whoever out there

2007-02-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

dear whoever's looking after me..

grant me my birthday wish, return my best buddy back to me.
sighhh

please make it come true

im still missing you afterall.

2007-02-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

after so long .. i know it myself that i still cannot accept that it has came to an abrupt end. maybe i do not want to admit it. if given another chance i will make full use of it. without you around, i feel really lost and i cannot express myself. you're the one of the only few people i trust.
by any chance .. please make it happen. treat it as my birthday wish.. i know i cannot be happy.

nothing goes right recently, everything i do, i seems so frustrated about it. im not happy at all.
dear whoever that's looking after me, make my wish happen. make her come back. mh.

no title

2007-01-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

hello guys, its been sometimes since i really update this cobweb-filled site.
recently i've been pretty busy, busy lazying around. exams are so near and i don even have the motivation to study. i feel so lazy =(
drop me a suprise, motivate me. it takes special people to motivate me and that keeps me going. oh well, the best and the most special someone left already. heaven is making fun of me. ahak!
perhaps i don really know how to treasure my friends around me. my perceptions are so different from others. maybe im born aquarian, a february kid.
anyway i don think that person will ever step into this site since part of me has changed. that person will not forgive(?) or accept what i am today. im rather disappointed in myself and you. you weren't there to control or speak to me. you left me to die, but i know what i've done to you and myself. i asked for it. i wonder if it's too late to apologise, you dont have to come back..
cos i know i don deserve it.

you will still be the best. its hard to find a replacement. but now, only the ghostly image remains. if its fate, may u see this.
you're fragile and you know i know it, so take good care.
the best arian who's born on the 9th.
my life sunk when u and my dog left. i feel so "betrayed", all that trust that i've built up - gone. i've lost much confidence in humans, the lack of trust in humans made me superficial.

human learn things the hard way.

stayed at home these few days to "study" for my exams. nvr went out, nobodi asked or i asked but not free. the timing is so not right. i want to start driving. i want to get my licence. i want to be faster than anyone. if its possible, i want to be a professional driver. too bad singapore doesnt have such a profession. oh well.. boring singapore.

i wonder what im going to do after my exams? that'll mark the end of my poly life. im wondering if i should go to the CSCC DND. those faces i want to see will not be going. moreover, it's expensive. boo! can you convince me?
anyway, im no VIP so why bother.

my phone is silent for the whole day. isnt somebody gonna talk to me? hahaha.
oh well .. everybody's busy.
(what a lousy excuse)

you can close your eyes to reality, but not to memories.

happy person (:
not :(

ja na!

im losing sleep

2007-01-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

im losing sleep. i haven't been sleeping well for the past few days..

what actually happened ?

inner feelings

2007-01-16T12:27:00.001+08:00

how does it feels to lose a very good friend?

terrible (:

im a happy person

2007-01-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling so depressed recently.

someone save me.

on second thoughts, who bothers.

hahahah..
im a happy guy.

DEATH TO SPINNOVEX

2007-01-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

hahahaha. DEATH TO SPINNOVEX. its finally over. FYP FINISHED. hahahah .. damn i've been slacking through the project - alot too much.
celebrated by going to drink with my dearest sister pauline, daryl, yuhong, jason, kevin. edric was with us but he left early, so sharon don worry much about that egoistic ass. lol..
however, the process is kinda frustrating and irritating. don wish to comment much. its simply fucked.

spinnovex pictures not out yet, pui eh donno happy until where then don wish to come online. ccb vincent, faster come online and send those pictures.
well .. that's all for now ..

ja na~

inhuman body.

2007-01-06T08:57:00.000+08:00

inhuman body system. its weird.
nvr eat for the whole day.
just a cup of milo.
i wonder why i don get dehydrated.
i don feel thirsty even before the cup of milo.
i slept for 5 hours and i woke up.
its back.
the inhuman sleeping hours.
the "pre-set" bioclock.

sick oh sick.

2007-01-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

had spinnovex exhibition yest. it'll last for 3 days before we start clearing up on monday. what a boring exhibition. the most fun part of it is playing teckchee's group motorised wheelchair. it's so fun, but i wouldnt want to use it next time. i will stay healthy!
caught fever during exhibition, but i donno how though. suddenly there's an excruciating pain to my head, had no choice but to tolerate till i get home.

went to vivo city with teckchee and vincent. they're my best buddies in poly. the actual clique im in, we all get along well, when having fun i do not need to hold back. unlike many of my cliques.

today i skipped spinnovex cos im not feeling well, my body feels so weak and still couldnt get the headache out of my head. so i somehow "rest-ed" myself. take a break, its very important! :D
talk like im very hardworking like that. hahaha.

i changed my blogskin. hope u guys like it. if u dont, nvm. cos i do (:

happy new year to everyone

2007-01-01T07:11:00.000+08:00

happy new year to all of you people out there.
may 2007 be a successful year for both you and me.

went to st james pwr stn. well, i didnt really like to club so it turned out to be rather bored for me.

but anyway .. HAPPY NEW YEAR though i see there's nothing to celebrate actually.
uh oh.

late updates.

2006-12-24T08:34:00.000+08:00

ok i am back at blogging.
where shall i start then?

right. the cruise trip was quite okay, not really that bad. you don get to see much overboard. since im staying at the cabin with balcony, a glance outside will be only nothing but the sea (maybe some little island and some vessels). however the sea breeze is defnately better than the aircon in the cabin. the bad thing about sea breeze is it makes ur hair and skin dry. took pictures on the variations of the clouds and the sky colour.

the food on board was great. one meal they provide is definately enough for me, confirm will be full. the ambience at the fine dining area is great, its so beautifully decorated. on the first night, i went to the casino to try my luck, played the slots machine and i won some cash. i believe in beginners' luck. haha xD

nothing much to blog, or rather i don want to specific. im feeling so lazy right now.
should i upload my pictures ? hmmm ...

back from the seas

2006-12-23T15:04:00.001+08:00

im back.
but im so lazy to blog now.
perhaps the night ..

perhaps perhaps.

merry christmas.

2006-12-20T18:01:00.000+08:00

im gone till friday.
what time i'll be back do not know.. so have fun.
both you and me.

its just hello and goodbye.

and
fangfang, do take care alright? (:
cheer up soon!

cool ?

2006-12-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

stayed back in school on wednesday after the NUS talk. the speaker makes it like so easy to enter NUS, which is totally not true. but if i can enter NUS after i come out from my NS, i will want to continue studying mechanical engineering. the question is, should i specialise in aeronautical engineering or should i go with my interest and study automotive engineering. hmm .. what's your say ?
interest or future ?
studied for friday's test at t16 with the usual. and i did something which im proud of myself.

it all started with a deck of cards den i slowly build it upwards

then slowly, i've succeeded in climbing to the peak. (dependant on ur base number of cards)

one set was easy, so i made a replica. side by side. its not THAT easy to do this

Ta-da! the twin towers. added some glow effects and soft focus with Picasa

then i tried doing things differently. and this is what i got at first.

this is just another view from the previous'.

this time i tried to do things really differently. notice the orientation of the cards. its not easy.

and again, i climbed to the peak, with 2 different orientations of the cards.

and one ass friend of mine, forgotten that im stacking? the cards, and he slammed the book on the table. alas, the fall of the weird pyramid.

enjoyed doing such stuff when i have nothing to do.
oh well, time to study for tmr's tests. i have 2! gawwrr..

billy bombers!

2006-12-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

school was boring as usual.

so i got nothing to blog about it.

met up with shuejun to have dinner. both of us cant really decide on where to go, so i suggested that we toss a coin. and after tossing we headed to JP to have our dinner. we dined at billy bombers. its her first time there so she was rather fascinated by the retro jukebox. its my 2nd time there though, i don usually eat at such places. took some photos of our food and environment. the portion were too big for the both of us, it nearly cost our lives to finish everything. hahah. being too full, we walked around JP to let our food digest before going to the bus interchange and travel back. its my first time seeing jigsaw puzzle in a spherical form, its so cute. was it lilo or stitch that was being displayed ? the blue alien .. i donno the name though.

then after that we went back by bus.

the fascinating retro jukebox

she ordered the potato salad. its totally not appealing at all.

ol' favorite root beer floats

drinking the root beer float (self explanatory)

our main dish. chix n ribs. well its not really that nice but the portion is huge.

end product one.

end product two

well, that's it.

have you been bombed by billy yet ?

aaaaaaaaaaaa!

2006-12-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

im so pissed off.
so what if im sick? who cares anyway.

im still pissed off. i shouldnt have spoke to her. that alone spoilt my night! here am i trying to "patch" ? back the frdship and i failed miserably. i wonder what went wrong. its so dumb till its starting to get frustrating. im so fucking pissed off. what's the exact reason? or should i say the reason aint impt as things alr happened.

im just a stupid dumbfuck.
ROAR.

terrible headache.
its been long time since i had one. BAH! GAWWRRR!

new version of blogspot ?

2006-12-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

i don see any new changes with the new blogspot. care to give a few pointers ?

anyway, im back from camp. its a tiring one, perhaps im old alr. my joints are plain rusty -__- up till now it's still hmmm ... suan ? my feet are cold since the morning, even now it still is. i think im going to be sick.

i'll blog more when i have more pictures.
and i forgot to bring my charger back! zzz.

holla

2006-12-07T17:48:00.000+08:00

holla guys and girls.

im goin to make it short. just gonna post some pictures and update here and there.
right.

i hate thursdays, they're always long days. in the boring lectures. i drew certain pictures by myself. they are of the same catergory though, once you see it u'll know. i don draw very well, but i just like them. anyway they are of drawn to kill time. perhaps i should give my little jelly blob a name.. hmmm what should it be ?

"a reflection of me? im that small ?"

" The devil jelly blob. "

btw, i picasa-ed (photoshoped) it to make it stand out. again, im not very professional when using these softwares. just the basic! hope you'll like it.

good soul.

2006-12-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

im a good soul. i went to do community work in the morning. went to redhill at ard 8.40am, then proceeded to the "senior care center" (is there even such a thing?) then interact with the old folks. there's this old lady talking about her life, told me that her life's not that pleasant. but she learnt to see things "openly" and live happily. mingling with her friends from the "senior care center", she seems to be a much happier person.

after that, went back to school cos i have to wait till 4pm, the time then was 12 in the noon. sat in club and slack, well not really an enjoyable moment but that's the only place i can go to kill time. during one time, all of them either went home, went to catch the basketball match or went sleeping in the audio room. i was left alone in the room, nobodi to talk to. i cant leave the room because of 2 reasons, one being that no one will be thr to lock the club, the other being that the time is still early. im feeling rather miserable to be left alone in the club, think im someone who cannot be left alone, not speaking to anyone. talkative perhaps?

went down to orchard for a short while then came back. i detest going to orchard during the day
esp on weekends. that place is overcrowded. and i definately detest people who "forces" others for donation. fuck you.

im miserable.
so are you ..

monday blues

2006-11-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

mondays suck. its cold in the early morning and hot in the day.
well that's the weather of singapore.

went school early in the morning to do my fyp project. took the exhaust pipe to materials lab and sandblasted it myself. for the next two to three weeks, life in school gonna be horrible. totally broke! that means no lunch, no going out which leads to less time for socialising.
nothing special happened today, boring as usual. soon after school, its home again.

i'll be a perfect stand-in for others till they found happiness again. hahah
i was born to make you and myself, miserable.

terrible.

2006-11-22T19:29:00.000+08:00

went to school for my aircraft system test. it was .. terrible.
just the mcq were enough to kill me off. zz

the rain made the weather cooling and made the ground slippery. my pair of trail slippers had no grip on smooth surfaces, i had to slide across to prevent myself from slipping. i'll be doomed if im in a rush for i cant run, luckily im not. went to school just for this short while then returned home cos nobodi wanted to go nowhere. bus was crowded as usual, fortunately there are empty seats. i dont mind if i must share seats though. soon enough, i got home rather quickly and here i am right in front of this stupid screen.
right.

worst "happening" of the day - i laid on my back cos i lost balance for that moment, and the surface was mud. crap!

fangfang hope you'll get better soon. shit happens in life. so cheer up asap! (:

I'm just a man,
I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who's meant to sing this song
Just a man,
I'm not a hero
I -- don't -- care

howdy!

2006-11-17T02:20:00.000+08:00

well well well .. what have we here? the urge to blog is here again. so ...

here am I ! xD

what a tiring day today is .. met up with yongming and brother for early "dinner" at Junction 8. its been such a long time since i last went to that place. guessed what ? the bishan library is up. the exterior looks cool. went in and browse the magazines thr and shortly after, went to far east to window shop for me and for yongming, he bought an apparel for himself. went to billy bombers at heeren to get something to drink and eat. around 10pm, joel came and we went to bugis to .. WALK again. my legs are TIRED, hello!? ym sent brother back before meeting me and joel as both of us went off first. im lazy to blog all .. so just the main points okay?
they're in order.

-played LAN
-ym arrived
-had green tea at coffee shop
-walk about!
-went to parklane to play billiard
-took cab and FINALLY home. zz

for the whole day i just kept on walking. shouldnt have agreed to go orchard in the first place. tmr will be another tiring day.

*updates*

i changed my blog's theme. RETRO ?!
hahaha. changed the music.
dance with me wil you ?

-uh oh. maintenance error. i cant change my song .. yet

one hell of a day .. this is what i've been looking for.

2006-11-06T18:49:00.000+08:00

alright ladies and gentlemen.. this is the long awaited updated entry.

went to ubin in the morning on sunday, meeting the guys at 930am at tanah merah. i cant believe it, i was the first to arrive and they were late.. that's too absurb. slowly they arrived one by one, and in total there were 8 of us - me daryl edric kristie jiawei jason junjie and eric.
went ubin by the bumboat (duh!) and went to our usual store. soon we moved off and this is where the chain of events happened.

we headed to noordin beach and went to explore the insides, the sand were too soft so we got down our bikes and walked. then my earphones got stuck inbetween the wheels and the body, and so it spoilt. ugh! no more music to keep my adreneline pumping. we reached a dead end so we headed back up from whr u came. then we came across this muddy land with water in the middle of the path we're travelling. jason were the first to try cycling across it, in the end his wheels got stuck in the mud, so he couldnt balance and put his left foot into the pool of muddy water.. eww. hahahah i laughed at him, then slowly we pondered how to get across. then we didnt care much and just take the "safest" path. we continued forward and we came across another pool of mud and water in the middle of the path. during then there were only me edric and jason, and im the first. from what i see, i could see some land sticking out from the water and this made me thought that the water is shallow. i tried my luck and cycle through it, and in the end, my front wheel SUNK in! zz and the same thing happened to me. shouldnt have laughed at him. and the worst thing is my situation is much worse then his. i got down the bicycle and asked edric to rock the bike for me to get it out. then when the bike's out halfway edric asked me to help me to hold it cause he couldnt balance it. then when i went back, i walked into the muddy waters and the next moment i knew was my right foot SUNK right in. the water levels were just before my knees. i couldnt get my feet out as it got stuck due to the pressure and the mud. then the rest of the guys came and both eric and daryl helped me out. when they were pulling me, i still couldnt get my feet out unless i forsake my slippers which is impossible. its not a joke for me to go home barefooted from ubin to shunfu. so what i did was i took my feet out of the waters and i used my hand to feel where my slipper is. and i touch the mud, it was totally disgusting. but i didnt care much i just took my slipper out from the water and my whole slipper was covered with mud. luckily there's a prawn farm? beside and i washed my slippers thr. edric wanted to wash his slippers then he slip and sat on the ground, his backside got black marks. what a joke.

then after much exploration, we took a break and had our coconut drink at the same store. edric and junjie left earli and the rest of us continued after that. then the final event happened, it rained so the grounds were very slippery. we arrived at a downhill, the surface was very uneven and bumpy, worst of all it's slippery. jiawei was tired and he's taking the path with the nice surface. i went around him without braking and i realised that the path i took had a "ditch-like" grounds before me and i knew it was too late to brake so i just tried my luck to clear it. nearing the end of the "ditch", the velocity of the bike increased and the more it bounces, and alas i couldnt control it anyway further and i knew i was going to fall. then i flew out, for that moment it seems that all my troubles were gone. and the next moment i knew, i hit the ground and i was in pain. i injured my head arm and leg, zz. all for the sake of speed.. hahah but it was a good experience. i wouldnt let that little bit of pain stop me, so i rest for abit and i continued with my bike.

these are the pictures i took today.

this is my left thigh.

this is my forehead.

and this is my elbow. it isnt very clear though. there's still other parts that im injured but im just lazy to take it. i think ive fractured my left arm though .. but im not really sure of it

now im having a strained neck, and im goin to see the doc already.

what a sunday, this is a very exciting ubin trip. im looking forward to more outings like this. hahaha. some say im crazy but i think im just looking for excitment.

omfg.

2006-10-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

my internet connection suddenly become so slow and i cant login into my msn. its either my internet or the service. what happened to you starhub?

cant wait for the night to come ...
anyway happy halloween!

grr ..

2006-10-26T03:23:00.000+08:00

now its 3am in the morning and i feel so dumb for waking up at such timing. zzz

let me rant !

and it's thursday. thursdays suck!

grrr ...

a new look!

2006-10-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

site revamp with a new look. words seems smaller though, i had trouble looking at it carefully but the overall layout is rather simple, that's what i like about it. the picture on the left looks cool too (:
messy!

life is short, u can expect anyone to just depart from you just in that short period of time. and sometimes it's just too unfair, where they'll just leave so unexpectedly quick and the worst of all, they didnt know they're going to depart because there's no sign to it.
you take care alright? it must be really hard on you but try to recover from it. you're a strong girl, you can do it.

just do some short updates for friday. met up with my primary school friend, shi chen to go somewhere after that we went to hougang plaza together with 2 of his friends. played pool throughout the night/morning, whatever you call it. then went to eat supper opposite punngol park and we sat at the playground after that. we had to wait till the bus company start operation, so we chit chat and just waste our time there.
that's all for friday/saturday.

now it's sunday morning, the haze isn't better. stupid haze, would you please either get very worse or just go away, don't get stuck in the middle. there are no plans today, except ym called me for a swim at the swimming complex near dawn. i couldn't really sleep because i slept for the whole of saturday. that is such an impossible task for me to do but nevertheless i did it =D however the headache still couldn't be shaken off.

someone told me, go get yourself a goal. i've been thinking perhaps it's true that i should set a goal for myself. this little short term goal of mine is to get my driving licence before i am called up for national service. the practical test date falls on 26 march. please government, set the date to serve national service after my practicals.

THE HARD WAY - human nature.

2006-10-17T07:30:00.000+08:00

hello everybody, im back from the crypts. many things happened during the period of "no-blogging". eventually many things changed, perhaps for the better or the worse. i dont know.
a person's character changes so fast. in just like the time you take to "snap your fingers twice" and a new person is out. its so hard to find a very good friend a very good friend, what more trust somebody. we just lost contact, just like that. i dont know what happened though, its like unfair because i do not know of any reason for this to happen. well, i tried my best already so i guessed perhaps im not a good friend. its rather sad for this to be happening, but this is how life works i supposed? human learn things the hard way.

some time later, found another one however not as close. did not trust as much and the same thing happened. out of a sudden, *snap* *snap*. ta da! a new person is born -__-
Perhaps i shouldnt trust a kid that much. hope my instincts are taking me to the correct path the next time.

skipped school yesterday due to lack of sleep, bad headache and a bad stomach. the morning was horrible and the night before was a living nightmare. im living in a sad world, as i saw some of the rather dark, side of life. the hard wasy i guessed.

oh well..

in a world of despair

2006-10-07T17:13:00.000+08:00

finally i will get myself to update this. but due to the the wrong mood. i aint gonna update much.
fuck this world.

monday blues

2006-09-26T03:00:00.000+08:00

aaaaaaa! stupid blogger. this is the 2nd time im doing this entry. grr!

today's the start of the new semester, which is my final semester before the end of my poly days. hopefully my studies will be successful and i could make an entry to university.

it rained heavily in the morning and i was drenched cos i did not bring an umbrella with me. perhaps i did it on purpose for it rained before i headed out, so you could say im asking for it. i just felt that this is the worst (somehow or rather) a man can get. in the cold rainy morning, feeling hungry and tired due to inadequate sleep, was drenched in the heavy rain boarding a very cold aircon bus and facing a heavy jam due to the rain. the bus is just like an ice coffin. im freezing inside even with my jacket over me. all the way from my home to skool, i shivered.

rch skool to continue on my fyp project. doing all the machining and stuff, its kinda boring for i've been doing it in the holidays almost everyday. cant i have a break or something ? getting urself oiled and dirtied is not a choice you could choose in the workshop. the lubricant, coolant, chipped metals etc.. makes the hands dirty and oily. leaving black stains on the skin and its hard to remove it, especially if its the fingernails. even after u wash it clean, the smell of metal still lingers. many people will choose not to even step into the workshop, but somehow someone will have to deal with the dirty job yea?

lessons were boring as usual, i think i talk too much during the first lesson. crap abit too much till the lecturer felt like throwing me out (in a joking manner of course). the class is kinda quiet and most of the time i can only hear the lecturer's voice and mine. i need to talk if not i'll get really restless and i will figit about. i get restless easily! (:
skipped my final lesson of the day and went out with teckchee, vincent, brandon, vicknesh and jeremy. we went to paradiz centre to play billiard. i still prefer billiard to pool, perhaps pool is too small ?
after one game of billiard,we switched to playing number ball. this way, everyone of us could play and we had fun. sad to say, i did not win a single round.. zz!
had LJS for dinner and we walked till far east and went home.

is that a feeling of love?

welcome to the junkyard.
for losers.

2006-09-25T01:40:00.000+08:00

just a useless piece of junk.

total
loser.

hell yeah!

2006-09-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

ugh.. burning body and aching shoulders. i feel like my bones are breaking when i woke up this morning. visiting palawan beach @ sentz created all these mess. its been a long time since i last went to sentz. went thr to enjoy myself however i was late in meeting them. (when was i ever earli?)
i wasnt really THAT late. just around an hour and a half? :D hahaha. i was just behind them when i rch. when the coach departing from interchange to sentz rch the destination, they just boarded the bus travelling the blue line. luckily when i got thr, i waited less than a minute until the next bus came. so i met them at last and went to a small pavillion to settle down. started off with beach soccer. hell yeah! its been a long long time since i played soccer, my favourite sport. too bad it was on sandy grounds.

then .. hmm what did we do ? oh ya.. took a swim in the sea. it's kinda dirty but who cares as long as i'll be having my fun. then off to play vball for alittle while until many foreign kids came to play soccer. they're so cute, dressed in the french and brazillian jersey. its very interesting as u don get to see things like that happening in the city or anywhr else in singapore or maybe i havent seen more of singapore enough. after that match it was out turn to play! those NS guys came to play with us, and we got thrashed. my stamina really sucks to the max, i get tired very easily. i don think i've played badly 'cept for some of the running part cos i was totally drained. i dribbled well though :D well that's what i thought. then 2 of the foreign kids asked if they could play, and i gladly let them take over my position while i went back to the pavillion to take a break.

once again, the guys went into the sea to play. did many stunts and made a fool out of ourselves, but it was fun. i'll post some pictures in the later part. even that we managed to drag the girls down the sea or was it only grace ? i couldn't rmb but they just got wet. took some photos of us having fun. then we tried doing flips into the sea. but i did a front flip onto the sandbed and lay flat on my back. very painful, but it was exciting. hahaha. quite a while later it rained and we left to bathe. we did the very typical guy style of bathing, 3 cubicles opened up. 9 of us bathed together at the same time. like that we saved lots of time waiting unlike girls, still must queue up for toilet. really stupid.. hahaha :D
went to pastamania for our dinner and after that went to meet clement for a drink, together with yuhong kevin and grace. sent grace back home as it was very late and i got lost in sembawang. uh oh..

all of the guys in the pool. sunburnt bodies.

the human pyramid part 1

human pyramid part 2

human pyramid part 3

human pyramid part 4

fun of piggyback-ing

just whr the hell am i ?

yup. that's it.. enjoy!

depressing results.

2006-09-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

i smell dust. i think i should hire some personal blogger to help me maintain this space.
well sorry people for the long update. well many things happened during the period of "no-blogging" but im going to just highlight afew of it.

lets start off with .. depressing results.
the gd thing about this results is that i failed none of the modules. for one particular module i barely passed. i got a D+ for it. sigh, D for Depressing. scored low gpa for this semester, which i kinda expected due to me not studying hard enuff for it. partly because i was distracted by some other personal matters. oh no .. its really depressing. sighh! :(

next is my final year project.
lots of things to do, for now the problematic part is the design and the part fabrication. hopefully our project will succeed. time to work hard for it as 2 out of 4 members went overseas. next week gna be a busy busy week. help me think of ways to relieve stress!

for today, i met up with joel cos he was very sad about some stuff. did nothing, just lepak ard orchard area. practically wasting time. his future is hanging on the edge of a very steep mountain or u can say stuck between heaven and hell. two poor fellas did nothing but roamed ard town, so pathetic.

time to change my song for this blog. please listen till the end of it for its really a very nice and soothing song. however if u think otherwise, its alright as the cross button is located on the top right hand corner of the page (: no obligations!

its time someone came to unravel the secrets of myself - psychologically. its complex but anyway who will even bother. hahaha.. its time for me to think of myself and not keep always thinking for others. but i know in the end i'll go back on my word and chose to help others instead. soft hearted .. hahaha. cant be helped i supposed ? (:

i think its time to stop waiting and move on alr. now ure gone, i hereby wish you will have a gd life and gd future ahead. may success follow everywhr u go (:

but can my determination be strong enough?
let time do the speaking.
blame it on a soft heart. hahaha..
anyway .. who will even give a damn to how i feel.

nobodi will ...

is the morning air fresh ?

2006-09-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

woke up after dozing off in front of the com at ard donno what time till 2.30am this earli morning. then woke up and stayed online till 3.30am and only when to bed when nobodi talked to me. i tried not to sleep cos i had to wake up earli morning and head down to the airport to send one of my brothers off to china for his attachment. he'll be thr for ard 5mths by himself. oh poor him, but the topic havent rched home yet. ard 3.3oam, jk ps-ed me and so i decided to go to bed for an hour and only to find myself waking up at ard 4.40am and went back slping til 5.45am. then ym gave me a call to ask me to prepare myself cos they taking cab down to fetch me to the airport. so i have to rush thru the wee hours before the sun rises and travel down to the bus stop to wait for the transport. in the cab thr's joel, ym, jk, me & the driver. duh!`-

right.
so we rch thr and saw our brother dressed so formally. then we all chatted before he went to the inner part of the airport (is that place the customs? yeah i think so ..) early morning joel did a wonderful stun to me, he made my left ear bleed. perhaps this virgin hole couldnt take the force from such a gentle giant. lol, so it tore too soon apart i sup. he wanted to trade the ring on my ear lobe with him but to no avail - the ring just wouldnt come out. after a rather long gathering, its time for his flight. i bet with the others that his gf will cry and i guessed i won .. *smiling with glee* but every joke, prank or whatever you called it has a limit, and i hope she'll be alright though.

off to T2's BK we go and had our very BK breakfast which we found ourself filled up after eating. all of them looks dead, prolly too shag due to work and lost of sleep. took some photos thr after finishing our very BK breakfast. so here we have, jk ym mc joel yj and ml. feli and one of her friends did not join us for breakfast cos they wanted to go home to catch some sleep. well, to their individually home of course.. BUT things like that are hard to say. wait till she tell me herself. *gahahah* well.. left the vicinity and headed for the train station which is few escalators below.

*DISCLAIMER*
whoa, this entry is long. what lies below this paragraph is just some happening stuff or rather happening or some may call it boring mundane stuff (or whatever stuff you call it) that happened today. if you're not interested in continuing further do feel free to check out the links on the left side of the page to browse for blogs of others. for those that are interested please feel free to proceed. nevertheless, i thank all readers to read till this part.

here we go again.
ym wanted to go to COMEX @ EXPO, so some of went 'cept for joel who will be meeting his friend later and ml, who wanted to get home to slp and prepare for his A's. he couldnt afford to stay in JC for another year .. again. everyone seems tired yet im so energetic. took a glance at the clock and got really demoralised. it's like only 9am plus and the fair starts only at 12nn. so the five of us just got wasted thr and soon enough it's 12nn! and thr's hellalot of patrons. spotted a handful of cute girls roaming ard that area. four of them went to get their webcams and we jalan jalan ard. i saw my friends from SP working thr. then lastly i went to visit mok at olympus. found her but she's promoting her olympus stuff to a customer so i just stood around giggling to myself. of course she saw it and gave my stomach some pinches secretly. *hahaha*
mok! if u happen to see this, all the best in selling as many cameras as possible. u'll have my full support mentally! u know i couldn't support u financially.

then we left.. this time its home sweet home. now everyone looked really tired. mc went rushed home to get his clothings for work and ym alighted at raffles place to do some big biz and he went for some training from his workplace i sup. yj, jk and me went marina bay first to get a nice seat each for ourself and travelled back home. the journey was kinda quiet (like i said, everyone looked tired). me and jk alighted at bishan and had duck rice for lunch. and so after that i asked him to come my house to play naruto. when we rch my place, of course naruto first and went home after awhile. nothing of interest here onwards until dinner with my family..

alright, its going to end alr so be patient ya? (:
it was kinda early for dinner however mom asked me to go get changed and join the family to have dinner together. so i did what i was instructed. got changed, got into the family car and off my dad went. to my suprise, we actually ate at a nearby restaurant - a korean restaurant. the ambience looked kind of japanese style to me but the most idiotic thing is, they used metal chopsticks which are kinda thin. im not very proficient in using the chopsticks so i had a hard time getting my dishes. luckily thr's spoon for my usage (it really make things easier alot) had some cold dishes, makerel (wrong spelling?), chicken soup, some weird rice with vegetables and chicken meat, and a pancake. it's expensive but it's a new experience for me. after that off to home we go ... yay!

i seriously appreciate all readers who have this patience read till this point. people don usually appreciate me for the things i've done. be it for whoever, but i really don mind if im being used la. well maybe alittle? *hahaha* so let me appreciate them.. first. (:

here are the pictures we took today. enjoy! (:

our brother yj eating at BK. have you BK-ed?

ym giving me a headache look.

Im looking spastic.

brother trying to look "juai". once again she failed miserably. *uh oh!*

well this is the normal me. cool huh? *hahahha*

part of my brothers. i forced ym to take this.

and lastly my favourite pic - the gathering. however ym ruined the picture totally. *LOL!* we'll miss you mr J. Diong (: have a safe trip.

well, that's it. (:

woohoo.

2006-08-30T18:02:00.000+08:00

two gd news for the day.
first of all .. i passed my FTT. yeah! now im left with practical lessons. secondly, sis got a free keyboard from her friend. i really loved the piano.. now finally i can get to play again. (:

hahahaha. oh god.

2006-08-29T02:59:00.000+08:00

im a happy person.
hehehe.

i shall smile at the world.

sorry...

2006-08-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

i feel so pathetic now..
sorry folks.

have a nice night.

...

2006-08-27T20:03:00.000+08:00

am i running away from all sorts of trouble?
ha ha ha ... im happy person. :D

not.

what shall it be ... ?

2006-08-27T10:38:00.000+08:00

its been some time since i really felt like updating. i know im feeling something inside me this particular morning after watching some episodes of a korean serial. part of it seems like a replication of my life but so what ..... ?
the exams are finally over, well the exams were rather easy 'cept for a couple of papers. but why do i bother so much since its over alr. went to fish n co to meet up with the 2 jasmines for dinner, was late so i took a cab down fr bukit timah area. really expensive, burnt a hole in my pockets. but it was worth it cos its been some time since i last met up with them.
here are the pics:

yup these are the 2 jasmines. my v gd friends from secondary skool

this is the swordfish sth meal. its hell too much. btw that's not mine.

after that we went to catch a movie at j8. saw my super ex-girlfriend. its realli a dumb, comical movie. then i went to daryl's house to stay overnight. thr's quite a number of them. and we drank. unfortunately, they were rather drunk. and the only male survivor was me, AGAIN. muahahaha! edric did not drink though for he will have rashes.. i think my livers were burnt but who knows ...

Check out his face.

weak. muahahah .. its so fun to make others drunk. life's just like a game. if you don win, you lose.

whall shall it be ..

why should thr be a reason for everything? why should we listen to the reason in the first place..

bad friday.

2006-08-19T00:50:00.000+08:00

again.. people please rmb this, every friday is FRIES DAY. ok fries wasnt so tasty today afterall. i went to meet my project mates at simei to do some experiment on the module we just bought. kinda complex to explain here, perhaps if our project got chosen to display at the tentage outside the convention centre, i'll explain to u thr.
i left earlier and went to boat key to try out for the job interview.. well failed in the end due to im inexperienced. its kinda dumb to think about it, but isnt everybody from inexperienced train till ure experienced ? and waitering need what type of experience? learn to take drinks and serve orders? ym, im depending on u this time.

after that met up with felicia and went chinatown to eat tian ji zou. very filling and i nearly threw up. then chatted with her and after awhile she went to find her friend. i left to mac to get an ice cream cone to eat, suddenly i saw 2 of my ex-mac collegues working thr. one of them is my manager last time and the other one was a collegue of mine. its been donno how mani years since i last saw them. then chatted for quite some time and i wanted to go to the toilet. since that mac was rather small, thr's onli one toilet. i push open the door suddenly got one aunty inside. knn scare me.. lock the door next time la. then i quickly told them to leave cos they wanted to deliver some stuff. the most unbearable thing was i had to tahan my pee till i got home. that was ugh.. some kind of hellish shit. first the journey was long, next the bus is kinda 'shaky', if u know what i mean. once i rch home, don need to think of taking off my shoes. immediately i chiong to the toilet and its like heaven the next moment u knew i

t. hahahhaa..

below are some pics taken when we celebrated brother's birthday.

Brotherhood in arms. i've ps-ed this photo to make it more like a sketch.

Cake to our brother. "Brothers for Life"

Yingjia is trying to look cocky. but she failed.

Yongming over here .. looking fake

Brothers at work.

We had fun together.

the fall from the very start ..

2006-08-14T17:59:00.000+08:00

perhaps i should really shake it off, since its over i should just let it go and proceed on with the next paper. the 17th will be my first paper for the exam, human factor. for the term test, i was rather confident but when i got the paper back, i failed by 2marks. i oso donno why though.. MCQ killed me. for today im going to start studying for it. however i lost 2 sets of my notes, irritating i cant find it anyway.

dear whoever in heaven, bless this poor soul and guide him through this rocky period and also
bless the girl out thr that she'll make it through.

time to study .. uhh

im so sad .. very very demoralised

2006-08-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

haiz.. this is a damn demoralising week, and also a demoralising friday. i think im going to fail badly for this test. things i studied didnt came out .. i don wanna repeat. sigh..
its so sad ..

god save me..
nah why should god save someone who doesn't save himself.

oh well..
life sucks..

dear god. save this poor soul

2006-08-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

omfg. this sem's results sure go downwards.. its like shares. at first it rises, and now it plundered. oh dear ... =(
monday's paper was hard enough, today's test wasn't any better. uhg..
donno what to type for today.. so i'll just make it short.
have to study for aerospace materials.. and that module suck.

pictures as promised

Brotherly love

Happy Birthday brother. well its not really her birthday its on the 16th.

and this .. joke of the day

singapore's birthday ?

2006-08-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

today's a public holiday for the whole nation. however thr's nothing to be proud of.. so much rules and regulations. its gd to some extent .. but sometimes thr's a limit and stop increasing the public transport fees dammit.

went to celebrate brother's birthday today. her actual birthday is on the 16th but since today's public holiday, why not celebrate it for her. went to sakura buffet restuarant to eat then after that i asked them to go heeren with me. wanted to go get new earrings, and i did it and changed it. the process is painful but i think it's worth it.. went to kbox at tpy and sang some songs. im not a gd singer la, and i don really like to sing. then after that, jiasheng came to drive us home. he's on the way to eat tgt with yongming, jiahao and mingching. i nv went cos i need to study for tmr and friday's test. ugh.. im so dead. well i'll upload the pics again. some other time ...

do you think its right to fall in love ?
cars are so much better. oh well ...

you love me .. you love me not..

friday.

2006-08-05T02:09:00.000+08:00

woke up earli this morning to meet my friends to do a project. the best thing is today im earlier, however im still late by 10-15mins but thr's some improvements kay.. went to class after that at 11am for human factors. after class, the problem starts to come in again. phillip quah called for me and told me that he is disappointed in me. he told me " what did mr bang told you yesterday" and i told him about the driving test thingy and then he said "yeah, he did say that but you didnt tell me he did put ur case into consideration" then i was like wtf.. when did he tell me that, even my classmates heard nothing la. of cos i defended myself and its up to him whether he chooses to believe me or not. and again mr bang, FUCK YOU ! u didnt even said that to me and i have some of my classmates to back me up, they heard nothing except for your stupid driving test crap. indeed life is like driving test, you don go for the test you fail. nowonder the students doesnt like the instructor. just pack your stuff and fuck off la.

my mood was totally ruined la. in the end i wanted to go find him to so-called "apologise" to him. however he's not thr at the respective times i went to his office. i wonder why must i apologise to that fucked up lecturer who cant teach. just because he controls the markings ? life sucks to the max.

waited for huasheng until 5pm cos she's takin napfa toda. its been such a long time since i last saw her. i kinda missed her la. today get to spend some time with her by talking and waiting for her test to end. the process is kinda long though, i got hungry while waiting. hahaha. she got gold for her napfa, felt happy for her but nv showed it out. congrats buddy! (:
tgt we shall give life a twist, work hard tgt kay?

and huiqian said,
"don you miss her?"
"miss also cannot do anything."
"arent you sad?"
"very.."

this led to some other thoughts again..
life's bad.

in the end ..
im still alone fighting for myself again ..

totally moodless

2006-08-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

im totally moodless today. all thanks to the fucked up lecturer.
hey mr bang. FUCK YOU !

the not-so-me

2006-08-03T00:13:00.000+08:00

today's screwed up. im not being myself...
i get pissed off easily, even for minor things..
oh dear. save me

back ache .. ugh

what should i put ?

2006-08-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

before i start, i just want to say ... I PASSED MY BASIC ! lol .. im one step closer to honda integra. vroooom...
nothing of interest happened today. everything's fine except that i attended the stupid aerospace material class. supposed to meet the captain this morning but he like slack la. donno how to put it to words, u will know it when u talk to him. he bullshit me, i'll bullshit him back.

the battle of fools.

vs

im tired.
in the end .. who broke whose heart ?

so sorry for the long wait.

2006-07-26T21:12:00.000+08:00

wednesday! the third day or issit the forth day of the lunar month. many things happened as usual. camps, incidents, falling sick etc ...

haven't fully recovered from my high fever of 39c since then. the throat seems to be hurting all the time. well maybe not ALL the time but most of the time i supposed. coughing seems to join in the fun of disrupting my body. for now, i just have to drink more water and having ample rest. got myself two days of mc for last thursday and friday, meaning that - i've neven taken my statistics test and my presentation marks for aerospace materials assignment were forfeited due to the fact that the lecturer doesnt accept any leave of absence. BTK ? bang toong kiang or butoh kiang! whatever it is .. fuck you! RIGHT IN YOUR FACE.
this is what i wrote to him for the student feed back :

"M.Sc of course know his subject well la. my comments will be the same as everyone in his lecture class. never come due to high fever, like that also cannot sympathise. at least give 1 2 marks la, its not like i choose to be sick. ask him qtns, he go one big round in the end never answer the question"

lucky the skool only limit up to 300 words. i couldnt add more words to it and they don have a 2nd page for the feedback. really pissing me off .. stupid lecturer.

exams are round the corner and that is real fast. coupled with lots of projects and assignments to rush, this time i think im in deep shit. don understand the current modules that are being taught, some how i just don feel like studying but since this is the third year like some said, might as well clear it. easier said then done, i hope my determination and hardwork will prevail over laziness this time. uh oh.. life's hard anyway.

taken this due to boredom, and i love my aviator glasses.

its dark in here..

it wore my glasses.

how should i get over with life. how should i get over with the past. sometimes i can feel that my friends are getting distant. whr have they gone to ? what have i done ? maybe things changes and its a fact that time changes man. oh well.. this is such a lonely world.

shine the divine light and guide this lost soul along ...

so alone.

its been sometime ...

2006-07-09T16:20:00.000+08:00

donno i suddenly got the urge to blog. perhaps from after what i heard from a friend of mine talking about her own life then i come to realise what i've done so far. good things, bad things, things others did to me and things i did to others. i shall not name her. the things she did made me have certain change in some of my thinking.
today the show i watched oso made me realised things arent as simple as before. things that u believed in the past may have a certain change now. people are so hard to believe in these days..

why?

these are some things i couldnt explain verbally or by expressing out. it's just within me, carved onto me. my perception of life changes events after events. memories are sweet, memories are painful. thrs no way i can turn back time so the only way is to live with it.

i wanted to apologise for how i treated you in the past but it just seems so difficult. sorry seems to be the hardest words. nobodi will know it.. even if u finished reading this entry.

hahhaha... whooo!!!!

2006-07-02T01:54:00.000+08:00

hahaha. im so happy and i donno how to express my thoughts. i cannot scream and shout to let out my inner feelings. finally ...

ENGLAND IS OUT !!! =D

uh oh .. alicia is gna kill me! but i don mind .. as long as england is out of the worldcup. hahah..
byebye england, its time to kiss ur own ass goodbye.

whooohooooo..
ok im tired.

whooo

2006-07-01T19:22:00.000+08:00

alot of things happened recently.

test period just ended yest.. oh yea!
went to pub at night with kevin, daryl, edric, yuhong and pauline. we opened a bottle of martel and came along a jug of coke and green tea. as usual i don like adding mixers, so all the way drinking with just ice. then i gave pauline drink mine .. and say don need add mixers one. so i psycho her and almost everyone to drink it with just ice. =D oh no i think im a bad influence.
then i keep "cheers-ing" with pauline.
in the end she got drunk, then vomitted and edric vomitted not long after we left the place. yuhong and kevin were a little high. the only standing ones were me and daryl. i totally got no feeling in me. what a waste of martel. lol.. perhaps there's something wrong with my livers. hahahhaha

sent pauline back home and chatted with her. it was only until 7 plus we decided to go have breakfast at mac. and shortly after breakfast i boarded the bus home and rched home onli 8 - 9 in the morning.

nuah-ish. drained of energy

2006-06-24T11:04:00.000+08:00

a saddist at werk.
finally some updates to clear off the cobwebs.

i only managed to rch hm at ard 630 in the morning. went to club at MOS last nyte with ym, mc, zp. really stupid la, our side only got 4 of us. i thought we will have more ppl gg. the good thing about last nyte which really made me happy was, i met up with huasheng to go tgt!! my pinchy pinch pinch ol' lovable buddy of mine =Pp EPP- what does it actually mean? hahahaha...
oops.. cnt liddat say ltr 30th come i jialat jialat. hehehe~
took lots of pictures and videos. its been some time since i really enjoyed myself. missed those times whr we go lots of places, then got camera means take till no space. haahahah

rch thr then both of us went in first to get chopped cos the cover charge will be cheaper. saw casper terence and 3 younger girls. don really know them though not my friends :D after that huasheng accompany 7-11. both of us go warm up first, one amsterdam beer and one chrysentenum tea. donno how to spell leh.. flowers..
beer for me, tea for her. hehe.. after we sat outside liang court and kept our eyes wide open to look look ard. both of us saw some pretty ones.. hohoho
then mc and zp came. shortly after we went in alr, head to the dancefloor straight. with no hesitations. danced abit and our gang go get ourself a drink first. had whiskey SODA, omfg! mc go order the wrong drink, stupid ass. i wanted whiskey dry, donno which dumb idea of his then he go add some SODA. mixers just suck. no feeling still, but went back to dance anyway. danced with her and flaunt some of my abilities. LOL. huasheng!! pro ba? hahaha.
terence's friends got really high la. wtf la, just one tiger beer then high alr. donno what they thinking also. haha..
after awhile i really cnt tahan alr, so i got myself a graveyard, mc and zp got tequila shots. after that, NO feeling still. zz. but nvm den again went back. actually most of us thr were rather tired and kinda sian la. so i told them act high lo :D nvm i got training by vivian one. hahaha.. then terence's friends wanna drink somemore. so i merely suggested graveyard cos i jus drank.. lol really sending them to their own grave. then terence said "why u ask them drink graveyard?!" so i told him i nv ask them to buy they ownself want to try. luckily they nv buy if not... to the graveyard you go. kekez.

girls, if u know u cant really hold ur alcohol well, don drink so much la. be sensible enuff to think la.

btw, mok! if u see this.. ure an ass! ask u come then bring friends you dont wan. actually it doesnt matter if u see this or not, ure an ass still. hahahah! just kidding~ :P
after all the dancing, went liang court to eat MacD. the usual.. really sian alr. then walked further down with mc, ym and the 2 girls who got realli high with just one can of tiger, cos we wanted to waste some time to board the cab w/o midnyte charges. walked even further down than MS, to some ulu place. then ym brought us walk the wrong directions. really stupid la.. hahah after the girls got on their cab, it was time we got on ours.

huasheng really thanks for everything. =)
best budz for life !
the pictures will be uploaded soon.

...

2006-06-19T03:28:00.000+08:00

weeks past and its still the same.
everyday oso feeling tired and sleepy perhaps its the world cup fever.
to the boar out thr. u cant be forgotten stil.
stil in my mind .. always

untitled III

2006-06-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

they say clubbing will relieve all ur stress and problems.
but i don see why it doesnt apply to me..

oh well ..

untitled

2006-06-08T01:13:00.000+08:00

i just ate my dinner and the next moment i knew.. i vomitted. i guess my eating disorder is back.. and i actually coughed out blood. whats this ? TB ?
but i supposed i wun die just yet..

i realised i couldnt really let it go ..

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2006-06-06T17:45:00.000+08:00

now i don have a goal to accomplish and i thought that it's quite a challenging task. someone took it away, or maybe i took that goal away.

i knew im not emotionally strong to take it.
im not that ready to let it go after all..

perhaps one day.. we'll meet again

poor lonely soul spending his saturday alone.

2006-06-04T08:40:00.000+08:00

updates on yest.
yest just suck simply. i was home alone fer almost the whole day. home never felt so lonely. no food, no money. didnt wish to stay at home but my legs got very tired cos went to club the day before. it was packed as usual, everything was stil alright. should have asked vivian along..
its been quite some time since i last went to club, go thr to relieve stress. dance all the troubles out. next time i should wear shades to block the emitting of electricity.. hahaha. ltr give away too much den cannot tahan den u get burnt fingers in the end. it was a fun nyte..

oh im supposed to updates on yest. alright, did nothing but facing this dumb com fer the whole day. i was v tired cos i nv slp well, ard 1-2 hours of slp with in between brks. really suck man, those brks drained all my energy away. after i bathed, tried to get back to bed but in the end i got very restless and i got up. perhaps it's really hard to reset the circadian clock. donno what is it? hahaha.. it's actually the internal body clock everyone possesses. no photos to update fer this entry. actually i took some la, too bored online.

hahaha.. kao! huasheng!! really can become yang gui fei alr. :P
friday after skool, i nearly knocked onto one boy. he looks like a freshman to me, sorry but i like to sterotype :D i guessed he's in a rush and he apologised politely, " sorry miss.. uh sorry sir.. sorry sorry" wtf man.. hahahah

i love the webcam. during noon, webcam-ed with alicia throughout the whole conversation but i kept yawning la, too tired. it was fun though.. after that the both of us got tired due to lack of slp, so the both of us logged off and went to slp. fer my case perhaps others will consider it as nap, but again that's how my body works.

i think i need to find a well paid job soon. it's either werking at indochine with mc and ym or some pub with szesze. it all depends.. im just desperate fer money. perhaps i should go rob a bank. but the next moment i know, i will be thrown to jail. haha.. savings ARE important.

to mom & dad.. i think i will wan to go apply fer biking licence soon. haven told them yet, but i think sooner or later i will tell them myself. go apply for basic first. hahahah :D
i know bike is dangerous but the excitment level really pays off. cars are so much more expensive.. vroom vrooom..

tests tests tests .. and more tests.

2006-06-02T07:54:00.000+08:00

ok, to be frank i only had 2 tests this week. yest stats paper was rather easy, onli made few careless mistakes here and thr. donno whether im able to score fer it. i think today's paper im going to die alr, but i don wanna fail it. so i betta try hard to pass, betta still.. to score.

the morning's stats class was cancelled cos thr's nth more to teach since the test is over. after the skool term starts then he'll begin. still im thinking of the paper im havin ltr and some other things else, i haven finished studying.. just roughly browse through. shouldnt have lied on the bed to study, in the end just nuah thr and fell aslp. tired what.. everyone's tired. even as im typing i feel tired still. seems like there's not enuff time to slp, and recently i tend to slp more. i no longer wake up at e 5th hr of my slp :D heh heh~

updates on the past few days.
went to eat sakae with clement, felicia, sharon, edric, selina and grace at heeren. this time was rather cheaper when ure comparing ratio. we hit $247 and after discount was $217. again.. clement's treat. he completed his "task" alr.. thanks to us and thanks to himself.

at first it was like this...

this is grace ..

and this is me ..

and i had escargots fer the first time.

and finally.. the tower of plates.

we had ice cream after that, it's as hard as rock and the plastic spoon they gave isnt that useful. thanks to me, i had a betta idea to make use of the surrounding. i suggested that we use ...

:D

after that all of us went back home. but just outside of heeren we saw this really cute dog. it looks like a lion. big fluffy animal..

view one..

view two..

view three..

then we went home. grace accompanied me to take bus to my place then tfr to another bus back to her area. we had a good talk with each other and she somehow made me feel betta. then it's getting late and i told her to board the bus if not she don need to go home alr. somemore its nt nice fer me to keep holding her back. thanks grace. (:

however strong the person may look, thr's always a weaker side

uh oh im late..

2006-05-30T09:20:00.000+08:00

ok i shall do a short post. yest sth suprising happened, my long lost primary skool classmate contacted me and i was very suprised. of cos im happy, cos long time we nv contact. i got so much to catch up with her. that girl finally got herself attached, so sweet. FINALLY after 18 years.. please don be so shy la. heheh ~
werk hard fer it wor.. we shall meet up when the time comes :D

went to skool late as usual, but i was just ABIT late ma. tutorial was boring la, his lesson really omg. den go thr just play my handphone games. haiyah nothing interesting happened in skool la.. so i skip the skooling part. after skool went to serangoon country club to play bowling with selina, clement, kevin, edric & sharon. i donno how to bowl though, but just anyhow la. i think i hurt my wrist so i just played fer one complete set then i went to the arcade to stress out. but kinda sian la, the games thr so old. yuhong came take over my place after having dinner with his sister. then i went outside by myself.. wanted to enjoy wind but the place damn hot. no wind laaa ~!

shortly i asked clement to go McD with me cos i got hungry. we share a meal, the oil taste and smell makes me sick. uhh .. so ure lovin' it too ? lol..

the game of tag, cannot be done by myself alone.
why wont you do something ..
quit running away from it alr ..

sigh

busy friday.

2006-05-27T14:22:00.000+08:00

went to stay over at clement's house the day before.. and went late fer my 8am classes as usual.
lessons were boring and i wasnt paying attention. realising i got not much cash with me, i did not eat fer the whole day cos i onli got $2 to survive till the 16th of the next month.

did fyp after skool. we dismantled the exhaust system and cleaned the pipe. my teammates did sandblasting on the pipes to remove the tonnes of rust on the pipe while i waited fer the parts to come back to the workshop so i can start spray painting.

close up view of the spray painted manifold.

another view of it..

this is the ending pipe which is connected to the muffler. it's been wrapped up. if u could notice carefully, the spray paint wasnt that gd as i sprayed abit too close so it left some thick paint on the surface.

after all the things have been done, i just love doing spray painting. i wonder whr did they have lessons fer learning graffiti.. maybe im more towards the artistic side. hah!

went to PS with yh zq kevin rouwei edric kristie jason jj to find some stuff. then the place we went doesnt have the items yh's looking fer so we went to bugis. shopped ard and stationed at a specific stall while looking at the items sold. i went to kino myself to look fer some engine modifications book, however it could not be found so i just read thru some car catalouges. then i went far east to look fer clement. he's with a group of ppl. just wasting time gg thr, and walked ard. from far east shopped till taka, legs got real tired. nothing of interest happen, just talk to few of the freshmen. anyway fer both sides i felt rather left out, perhaps its just me wanting to be alone. as the day's getting darker, my mood changes with it. then went back home since they did not have anywhr else to go.

how nice if i could know what's up in ur mind ..
sigh.

oh god.

2006-05-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

whoa. its been a long long time since i last updated this crap. im still feeling the same but in the meantime, i guess i'll update on something nice.

18/05

went to cwp sakae sushi with clement to have our dinner. took lots of pics of our food and i took a shot of my "neighbour". this boy gets fascinated by the game im playing, camster, perhaps its a kiddy game like digimon afterall. haha. clement knew i wasnt feeling that gd so he treated me to sakae. of cos he has a purpose of goin thr fer he wanted to chiong the sakae card before he go fer his NS.
here are some of the pics we took..

this is just the beginning..

some fishes and sotong..

then more came...

the apple ice cream which had a plastic feel...

i tasting it fer the first time.. well .. it wasnt that gd :P

sense of accomplishment

the little boy who's sitting behind me, he's rather obedient.

and finally...

a feast of $109 ... eat till wanna puke. ugh!

...

2006-05-17T01:57:00.000+08:00

it's just my everyday question of " how are you recently ? hope ure doing fine"

im still waiting v patiently.. c'mon just one simple text will do.
haix..

what's the point. im still talking to myself..
sighhh

sighh

2006-05-13T07:54:00.000+08:00

days passed and im not feeling any betta.. sighh
i waited fer a simple msg from her after werk but it nv came..
perhaps she's just too busy fer something small.. perhaps she has forgetten.. perhaps she dint bothered..
perhaps perhaps..
i dint know how she's been doing.. thrs nobodi i can talk to and ask fer help. the only friend that i knew of, that could "help" me is having some problems with her. so who to turn to? thr's nobodi.. nobodi that could lend a helping hand..
this world is harsh. the reality is never nice to live in..
did i not put enuff efforts? :/

i just hope we can get to meet up tgt real soon..
perhaps ure again too busy werking.

will you take the iniative to contact me?

but prolly she wun get to see this..
sighh.. im so depressed. what has werkin done to you ?
nobodi to turn to about her... life is real depressing.
but, who will even bother ?

i din know shuejun could sing so well.
praises.

...

2006-05-11T00:09:00.000+08:00

been to the esplanade today, by myself.
its depressing to be thr alone.. i nv been to the riverside. if not things will be worst..

im still waiting fer the chance to bring you to watch a play or concert in esplanade..
hoping that the day will come ..

please show me the way ..

=)

2006-05-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

you gave me the will to continue living again ..
alas my hopes dint go down the drain..

its your one msg lighted up my life (((((:

take gd care kay ?
with loves.

................

2006-05-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

i don have lots of good friends..
some friends arent friends at all..
this is the lowest point in life... yet

i've been thinking abt u all the time.. and i cant hide that fact.

haaaix

2006-05-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

strike me.
really end my misery alr.

qwe

2006-05-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

i've ate today.
lunch and dinner.
sth proper.
maybe my appetite's picking up..

i shouldnt be so destructive of my health..

perhaps so..

but ..

lost appetite.

2006-05-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

i have lost appetite
my body is beginning to take its toll but i couldnt much be bothered.
im too depressed fer anything.

may death end my misery.

life sucks.

still under the state of depression..

2006-05-02T17:58:00.000+08:00

today wasnt gd.. again i lost appetite and i haven eaten anything yet. same goes to dinner, im nt hungry.
it's kind of a rough day fer me but i don wish to mention it. i believe everything will be alright.. soon.

well im praying and hoping it will be.. and i want it to be. let's just take a deep breathe and recall what we did. then again we will start off from thr..
everything will be alright.. rite ?

still adoring u always..

loves! (((:

depression

2006-05-02T08:23:00.000+08:00

i've totally lost appetite.
and my cant sleep well .. in fact i cant sleep.

爱你到底，痛的是我知己。
(ai ni dao di, tong de shi wo zhi ji)

happy three months.

2006-05-01T17:08:00.000+08:00

it's been quite some time since i post something long. went to celebrate minglong's birthday yest. had our lunch at orchard swensons. the food thr isnt that great, but after eating my share i was very full. i lost appetite to eat and thus making my appetite smaller..
then we went to walk about the area and then proceeded to play snooker and pool at cineleisure. boring game as usual perhaps i just don have to mood to do anything. im just putting up a mask fer everybody to see.. but one shouldn't look sulky and moody during one's birthday so a mask would be a perfect choice..

after playing i went to cornation plaza at bukit timah thr to have my dinner with my family and some of my relatives. i turned vegetarian fer that nyte.. ate at some vegetarian restuarant and again, i couldnt eat much prolly due to lost appetite. now i think i've slimmed down.. hah. i think im in a not so desirable health condition. it's deteriorating and it's true :((((

then went to meet them at minglong's house to cut the birthday cake. it's a crystal jade black forest cake.. yumyum! then we went to dhouby gout to play lan till 3am.. it's a waste of money but thrs nothing betta to do. then we walked from dhoby gout to peninsular plaza to play lan again .. ugh but this time they don have com so only 4 of us played. i was excluded.. the night past and im still waiting.. nobodi knows what im waiting fer. however i still continued to wait.. soon it's ard five six plus.. fatigue sets in and i just wanted to go home and rest. even fer now.. im having headache and im still coughing badly. like i said .. it's deteriorating :(((
perhaps the reaper will come a little earli this christmas.. when death held onto my hands..

took cab back with jiahao and yongming cos we're staying at bishan area. then just travelled and rest in the cab. yongming's place was fucked up so the cab had to detour to go to my place..
rch hm shortly and took my medication. even the timing fer my medication is mixed up, i don follow the timing to eat. then the reply came.. and i was kinda happy fer a moment and i went to bed peacefully...

i supposed thrs smooth and rough times in a relationnship. thrs bound to be certain disputes over certain issues, but i think when we're willing to solve sth tgt, the boat will continue sailing.
it's a give-and-take thing .. it'll be fair this way.
to path to create a win-win situation.. ((((((:

happy 3rd month together..
adoring u still always... (((((((:

loves <3

god.

2006-04-30T08:36:00.000+08:00

oh dear .. what have i done ? :/

boohoohoo

2006-04-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

went to the bbq at ecp last nyte, it kinda sad cos it rained. but u can see that the freshmen are having fun. they seemed to be together unlike the my batch.. perhaps this is the new generation. why am i talking like im so old ? im just only nineteen ! :D
learnt the basics of blading during the bbq and during the bbq im only interested in it. i nearly fell cos of my poor balancing, poor techniques and the rather-slippery floor. it's been quite some time since i last fell down.. maybe i would like to fall again. well, not those serious kind whr i get myself badly injured..
thanks to eric who lent me his blades which is a little too fast fer a beginner like myself. had fun during the blading session, however my braking cant seem to get it right.. all i need is a pair of average blades and more practice sessions. would u buy a pair of rollerblades fer me ? :D

shortly after blading, they celebrated edwin's birthday, this is the last year he's going to help us with the CS events. he had been one helpful soul though.. actually i felt like eating the cake before going but i was kinda thirsty so i went to get myself a drink. however once i sat down on the stone chair, i felt very tired and lazy and then i was goin to leave the scene soon. i went off only telling the ppl near me and i left with clement them to yeewei's house. we sat cab to city hall mrt stn and travelled by train to wdls.
it's my first time to his house.. we bought snacks and drinks from the 7-11 store before rching his place. watched a chinese show about "tong fang bu bai".. the ending is kinda shitty though.. then watched part of the chealsea and liverpool match. i donno why liverpool will win leh.. so lucky. chealsea should win!! rarrhh!! :P then they played mahjong, and i just watched. basically im jus doing nothing thr.. should i say an extra ? or maybe an unnoticed presence :/
i did not sleep fer the whole nyte and left earli in the morning with clement, the rest were still sleeping. we sneaked out of the house and went cwp to have our breakie at yakun. he's the best with me among the ppl thr.. he's one true friend indeed. whenever i felt like going out and thr's noone to accompany me.. i'll definately look fer him. after our breakie we went to civic plaza's ntuc. bought some thing frm thr and we went back to cwp, waited till 10am and went to the arcade. had fun thr cos it's been some time since i last went to the arcade.. everything changes when u age. i felt like a small kid thr .. haha but i don mind. let the child in me be put to full use. then after that went back home.

i was kinda tired during the trip back, and even as im typing nw i can feel the mental stress buildin up against me. feeling nauseous and i felt like throwing up once i rched home, however nth comes out.. i even forced myself to puke out what's inside but to no avail, so i decided to leave it alone.. i have a feeling that one fine day i'll breakdown and faint. but i know thr's somebody who will take care of me when that happens.. HOR ? :D

take gd care of urself, my dear boar..
diamond ring, should i or should i nt ?

loves! <3 (((((:

yeah .. i said titles arent important.

2006-04-22T15:39:00.000+08:00

this seem to be a habit, everytime i blogged after i long time of no-blogging, i will keep blogging fer a few days and the stop fer a long time again. this is like the deadly cycle of life..
im glad to see u smiling once again (((: but still i must get to know the reason of it. u cannot escape from my clutches .. hahahhaa :D
im going to ecp later, gtg pack.

the smell of ammonia suck. ughhh ~

the lack of sleep is draining me away ...

that boar needs to be coax.. and i think im doing a fine job :D hahaha..
old wang sell melons say melons gd, of cos la.. whr gt ppl say their own products is bad :P
too bad im not a product.

titles arent important

2006-04-22T03:51:00.000+08:00

it's been such a looooong time since i last blog. having scarred and infected knuckles .. isnt thr no way to prevent the infection? :/ got back from supper not long ago .. today's really a bad day fer me. i totally don have the mood to do anything .. sighs

went to play pool with daryl after skool, he's the only one acc me to play the rest i don think they'll be interested. from thr u can see who u can really call as friends.. i mean i just wanted somebody to accompany me.. of cos ppl got their own lifestyle to run but i guess im just selfish. haiyah i donno la.. anyway pool sucks today. my aiming was off totally and i got really frustrated playing. without eating dinner, i went back hm ..

shortly i went out to have supper with ys at prata house. the food thr eat long alr felt sickening.. everything was bad today.. baaaaaaaa !!!!

can u just speak ur mind and don keep hiding things .. isnt this what we promised ? :/ sighh.....

i miss all of my buddies especially the usual gang of us..

and i love you still...

fuck.

2006-04-14T16:57:00.000+08:00

to think that one problem had been cleared, now another one arises..
WHY !?

fuck.

just push all the blame to me ...
it's my fault

finally its over..

2006-04-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

finally it's over ! no more industrial attachment. had my last day of werk today.. went ard bading good bye to my formal collegues thr. however, 3 "best" collegues weren't present, johnny and syed. thanks for ur patient guidance throughout this whole ITP of mine. not forgetting J.H Tan, that joker (:

went to play pool and snooker at hougang plaza with hanting. really enjoyed myself sia.. both of us got hungry and so we stopped and went to eat our dinner. everything was his treat today fer it's my last day at werk. nobodi's gonna accompany him to slack during werk :D poor him ~ if i got the money, i'll repay him back .. definately!!!
but thanks fer the day!!

i love my boar alot, she's blur and silly. however she's adorable .. ha ha ha
another suprise will be coming up sooon.. real soon (((:
hope u'll like it..

with love <3

no title

2006-04-09T04:56:00.000+08:00

it's been quite some time since i had my last update. went out with sk during the day for lunch and i went to MOS at ard 8.30pm to get my wristband.. it acts as a shortcut to the club cos i can just queue at the priority queue whenever i went thr to club. but it's kinda wasted, i don club often. reason.. someone will know (:

after that i went to meet ym, jk, mc, zp, ml, joel and yingjia @ plaza singapura. they went to the arcade at the station. boring! arcade nv seemed betta as compared to the past. perhaps the times have changed :p went to the newly opened cathy cineplex whr everyshop stated "coming soon" is thr. totally nothing except the cinema.. i can foresee that thr'll be a nice place for a movie. well, i hope it is :D then we went to play lan at penisular plaza. it's was rather ok la.. com games, how long can u play ? i used to have lots of "stamina" while im playing computer games in the past, but now again .. perhaps the times have changed :p

bought and given it away.. i think it's beautiful. i hope u'll like the gift though its not really that expensivee (:

loves! <3

....

2006-04-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

feeling rather tired now cos ive been sleeping very little lately. many things have happened over the weeks, it's draining me dry.

werk was boring as usual, ive a feeling that im gonna slack my way thru the final two weeks. LO came visiting today and we chat for ard an hour or so. after that it's boring again, the things ive seen thr is repeatingly the same until for now thr's like nothing to write for my log book. perhaps i should just wonder ard to learn new stuff.

*to my dear boar :

sleep early also laaaa.. everytime slp so late. must impose a time for u leh.. slp before 7 hor! :p
time for u to go back hm alr la, ur parents must have been missing u lately. although i sound naggy here, but its for ur own gd kay? of cos, the choice is urs .. (: but at least consider abt ur parents thoughts kay?
be guai and ting hua laaaaa ~ ((:

headache starts again, with a more serious load this time... ugh :(

happy

2006-04-02T18:51:00.000+08:00

can see that she took lots of effort and spent lots of time doing it.
it's really special and it's the first time im eating something like that.
it's really nice.. have some confidence in urself kay? i dint wake u up cos ure v tired.

next time make more for me kay ? =)

*i think the both of u have poor acting skills.. i alr knew what u wanted to do alr (((((:

thank you for all ur time and effort, and everything u did for me these few days. i really appreciated it, don take it so hard on urself, its nt ur fault kay ..
thank you dearie <3

loves!

no title

2006-04-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

learnt to cheat tears. the tear duct will seldom serve its function..
perhaps my expression will always show the cheery side of me..
nobodi will see into my heart .. unless u can really feel ..

the hardest kind of pain - not showing them out at all.

an urge to blog

2006-03-27T01:10:00.000+08:00

suddenly i got this urge to blog in the middle of the nyte. maybe im not aslp yet .. and i usually get this stupid, irritating feeling whenever i stayed up. maybe i need a to have a long gd slp myself ..

i donno whats wrong with you. it felt like im a stranger to you as time goes by, i've always tried to bring it back but it seems like i cnt do it anymore, it takes two hands to clap u see? maybe ure busy with ur attachment but how about a lil text to say that ure fine or something like that. perhaps you've changed.. or maybe its me. but i hope u'll get to see this though.. i don wanna wish to end it like that..i feel its very wasted to end it this manner. i don wanna see it end.. or is it goin to?
sighhs.. :((
tell me there'll still be a miracle..

later werk's gonna start again.
i feel so depressed ...
and this song is making it worst.

time is 1.06am.
thrs nobodi to talk to .... :((

pay day..

2006-03-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

i smell money coming in at the end of the month. i hope the company keep their word and give the cheque by this friday.. im so broke now. i have many things to spend on .. i guess it's time to really scrimp and save on my meals and perhaps entertainment. time to be a borrring person .. hahahah

rched hm only at 8am this morning.. cos i stayed out whole nyte long waiting for some pig =p hahaha.. i got rather tired during certain hours but im determined to stay awake.. the 2 - 3 am hours were the hardest to get thru.. everyone was sleeping. i got no one to talk to, nowhere to go.. so i went to the coffeeshop and got myself a cup of coffee to drink. its been quite some time i drank coffee, then nearing to four. she came! ha.. the wait wasn't wasted. then played pool till 22bucks.

u ah, betta slp more la.. everytime say u slping then in the end donno do what. bu ting hua leh :/

okay la, maybe u nv say u slping.. i assume. but i guess, wrong assumptions always.. perhaps love is blind. hahaha.. feel guilty anot?

im still waiting .. when will it come ?
or maybe never ... or will it ? :p

just a short msg

2006-03-21T05:59:00.000+08:00

this post specially done for my special boar..

i really slept too earli last nyte making me waking up so earli in the morning. i sompah i never set alarm.. haha.. can count 1 what.. ard 12 i went to bed, den u add another 4 - 5 hours .. it's roughly the time i woke up =P i cannot go back to slp la.. if not confirm late, u don wan to see me late do you? =)
yup, now ure sleeping soundly and i don wan to wake u up unnecessarily. rest more and take care hor =)
gdnnyte!

time now is 6.10am.. im preparing to go to werk.
you betta not fall sick kay ? IF NOT ... i'll think of a punishment for you either hehe..

with love <3 ~

its the start of the weeek

2006-03-20T21:27:00.000+08:00

yea its the start of the week. it's monday !! werk is getting boring for me .. in the morning still okay, but after the first shift ppl left all i did was data entry again. stupid can !! werk is draining all my brain juices away. w/o those juices, the brain wun werk and when the brain wun werk, i'll get tired and lazy.

monday blues and it sucks. on the way to werk this morning, the left side earphone suddenly got no sound. its very irritating .. and the earphone not mine !! sry :(( i dint know what happened though but i guessed it's my fault. every electronics stuff i borrowed like bound to fail on me leh .. sighh.. ren suay zuo she me ye suay.. raaaaarhhhhh!!!

however im not that suay la, heaven bestowed a special kind of boar to take care of me. ha ha ha.. i will go to slp as promised. perhaps other days then wait... see i guai one kay? ((: u betta get home earli and slp? pleeasee?? (:
quick i got many things wan to tell u .. but not here .. so tooo bad.. wait till i bring u out again. provided either one of us rmb =)

wo kai shi ting hua lo ... ((:

its a sacrifice ..

2006-03-18T03:45:00.000+08:00

ha ha ha .. my job is done and im going to turn in soon. well, real soon i guessed ?
ok my headache's been acting up since awhile ago, but nonetheless im determined to wait =p
time for my medication at this wee hours of the morning. if i were to take the pills just after dinner i'd prolly slp till the next morning. ha ha ha :D

the time now is 4am, im done with blogging and my objectives are met. time for bed..
and of cos time to eat my pills .. im having headache .. as usual .. headachy headachy ..

i got this feeling of being nagged when she sees this..
im so dead..

sick

2006-03-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

i did not report to work on thursday and friday cos i was sick. i shall treat it as a long weekend :D
i didnt know how did i fall sick, but it's good. i rather stay at home den going to the damn workplace to do some stupid data entry. again, fuck u saesl inspectors .. ha ha ha .. middle finger to u ..

im very grateful to that boar who took great care of me during these 2 days. maybe she's not a boar afterall, perhaps someone real sweet. but too bad .. she's mine :D
today's first day of a new job.. take care and enjoy working (:

i thank heaven for the gift bestowed to me ..

work sucks

2006-03-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

ok work gonna sucks big time this week.. fuck you saesl inspectors. don talk about work it sucks!
today isnt meant for working. blocked nose, bad throat, cough, painful left eyes, bad cough.. more to come i supposed. i think tmr my eye gonna swell =(
aaaaaaaa... headache! no choice but to live with it..
i feel so mooooodless for the day..totally low morale and demoralised.
sighh, im talking shit.

she's as sweet as ever..
that boar =P

aaaaaaa!!

2006-03-14T05:51:00.000+08:00

omg .. im goin to work soon. i'll dread going to work w/o doing hands on cos data entry sucks to the core! study aero do data entry .. wtf man lo
however betta then some of the aero students, go courts -_____-
totally unrelated. SP sucks la .. >=o

i wonder if anything special will happen today, work's rather boring when im not working under my trainer but some stupid fat ass inspector. give us work just to stall our time and keep us occupied.. liddat might as well don go. can just ask me to stay at home what .. think everyday earli morning not tired meh ..
sigh.. but come to think of it, life's not that easy. who doesnt want things to go their way ? baaaaa... sickening!

it's gonna be ur first day of work later.. make sure u go for it hor. don nuah at home and say ure v tired =PpP lazy bum~
just like a boar .. ha ha ha

i have scratch marks on my neck and palm suddenly.. i wonder what happen. hmmm ~~

time's now six.. it's been an hour and fifteen minutes since i last woke up.
v tired :(

its a bliss..

2006-03-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

'llwork is totally boring today can .. sucks! data entry all the way.. pui luckily one NP fella came for attachment. im his one week old senior. ha ha ha .. we basically spent the whole day talking while doing stupid crap like data entry... pui!

something very sweet happened today.. i was suprised actually. somebody actually bluff me to TM to pass me something. well it's gd for me and im not tell u what is it.. keep guessing, perhaps u'll get it right. (:

funniest phrase for the day : " how come we're not in dhoby gaut ? (when we're taking green line)"

blur.

ure so sweet..
so thoughtful...
it's a gift from heavens ..
that special someone..
i adored .. (:

3rd day of work ..

2006-03-09T05:32:00.000+08:00

woke up at 4.30am this morning and prepared myself for work. the journey is damn far so it's hard for me to judge the timing for the journey. i was late yest can .. zz stupid.
did data entry and i got a chance to install the bolts into the curvic coupling. then also had briefing for HS & E, it's regarding safety issues. nothing much but it's betta compared to previous days.

after work went to play pool and ate at some kopitiam near the road junction, near ps. pool wasnt that good but ok la.. mom said cannot be too arrogant so that feeling died down nearing the end. hehehe perhaps i was having headache then xP then went back home .. nothing much.

nobodi told me to wake up at 4.30.. it's just my bioclock. perhaps i was waiting for someone to get back home safely :D
alright have to get goin to work alr.. if not i'll be late. time now is 5.48am, im off.

ohh.. im still waiting for my special salad but it seems that it'll never come.. or will it ? x)
cant wait for the suprise im giving .. are u very curious ?

-bad throat :(

finally i've decided to do something ..

2006-03-07T20:05:00.000+08:00

let me do some updates before somebody gonna kill me for not sleeping yet .. im basically very tired from attachment.. cant wait for it to end quickly. loyang is a very inconvenient place for me to work in.. it's so damn fucking far.. ugh :(
i've been having headaches all the time .. perhaps it's due to the sleeping hours i had recently. i will sleep more la.. nine hours rite ? (:
did nothing much during attachment but read engine manuals for the treant 500 engine.. ha! don understand right ? me either ..

watched fd3, the story was rather stupid and dumb but i just like to look at how the ppl deserved to die. ha ha ha .. im a saddist! but they just died too beautifully.. wanted to play pool after movies but it's getting late and ard that area it's all closed! grr .. maybe next time perhaps..

i just love giving suprises .. TA DA!! i sense a new suprise coming out .. but im not going to say it yet.. for it's suprise suprise! (((:

im fortunate and blessed.
for you, i will ...

yeah baby .. one last piece to go ..

2006-02-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

finally the time to be free is near .. i see light at the end of the tunnel .. final paper gonna be on the last day of exams .. it should be alright i supposed.. i just had my AEIS paper this morning well, i donno if i'll be able to score.. but confirm alot of marks thrown away cos nv study omg .. that's so sad right .. im not being lazy. im just .. hmmm say.. got distracted ? ((((:

after papers went to play pool at pool factor, located near beauty world - i guess that place is for beautyfool ppl, with the stupid bunch of idiotic friends, enjoyed ourselves but got real tired. i lost form while playing pool .. keep losing. i guess that's an excuse for being lousy, or izzit not ? then we went to eat kway teow pattaya opposite the pool place. i did not finish my food though .. suddenly got sick of it. ok but i got eat my meals REGULARLY .. ha xP

sat bus back home .. the journey was long and the weather is making me melt due to the scorching sun. my heart melts like snow as it's very pure.. i guess everybody has to agree with it. ha ha ha .. (((((:

reached home and i found myself stuck to the PS2 .. play and play till i doze off cos im tired.. but it's only for around 2mins and i woke up and cont. i think due to the stupid weather.. sweating even at home. suddenly i just got the urge to blog .. im not goin to let it stay stale in this webspace, im a good citizen. never waste webspace :D

if later got any exciting things happen.. i'll blog again.. for now, i'll have my dinner.

please eat.